It takes me like 4 hours to wake up every day.

That's bad.

And I tried to sleep last night early but the alprazolam dose must have messed up my tolerance.

I need to play with barbiturates - No jk. I try to just NOT be suicidal. I use it as an escape sometimes ... The thoughts.

I just get terribly disappointed in myself when my sleep schedule is messed up. At least I should be happy that I'm not having dissociative flashbacks anymore.

Gonna drink a coffee now.