Hey Laura? I am in my 50s and sometimes being on disability sucks big time. Most times though I'm grateful to have it. I can work a full time job for 2, maybe 3 months and then it's right back to the counselor every week and trying desperately to keep out of the hospital. I went on disability in 2008 when I was 40. That was a huge blow to the psyche. In the 20 years I worked, I might have been unemployed a grand total of 9 months. All of a sudden I'm sponging off of the government? Hello? Now I realize that it's what I have to do to make sure I keep myself mentally healthy. Yes, on occasion I find myself thinking "the government pays me good money to just sit around on my fat ***** all day". But I quickly stop that right then and there. I'm not on disability because I'm too dam lazy to work. I would love to go back to work and earn my own living. But i would also love to not go in the hospital. Given my druthers, and I can freely choose, I'll take staying out of the hospital thankyouverymuch. Doing what you need to do isn't a weakness. Doing something you would rather not do because it's what you need to do is actually being strong. Being weak would be ignoring your health for whatever reason(s) you don't want to be on disability. Recognize yourself for having the strength and courage to take good care of yourself. Make it a daily affirmation if you need to. Talk to your therapist about how you feel. Whatever it takes.