During the last year, but particularly since covid, I’ve been lonely, depressed, and anxious. I got covid and was on steroids. I had a terrible reaction to them. I freaked out and messaged her in the middle of the night on a weekend. It was so dumb. I’ve sent a couple of other dumb messages and then I got some insight into my behavior as I started to feel better. I messaged her and apologized for my behavior. I made no excuses for myself and took full responsibility. She has ignored me since then, and I feel terribly sad that it appears I may have ruined the relationship. Someone please talk to me.