Good for you for showing willingness to get help, but why are you doing it for your partner? What about doing it for you? Don't you matter? Aren't you important? The answer is that, of course you are.

How long have you been there? Have you made any med shifts lately?

Sending you strength and support. Don't give up. It will turn around for you. ending your life is not a solution to what ails you, it will only make the situation much, much worse.

Prayers and love.