My worst pdoc dumped me as a patient after I had a manic episode with psychosis. My psychosis involved me getting obsessed with metaphysics. I believe I was god and that I could create universes and move objects with my mind. I also became dangerously suicidal when it got mixed. My pdoc, a devout Christian, couldn’t cope with my non-Christian beliefs so he told me he was dumping me the day he discharged me from hospital! He had tried to convert me several times during our few years together and I kept politely saying I was not interested and happy with my spirituality.
By dumping me after such a severe episode he risked my life. Not to mention not being able to keep his beliefs separate from his job. He just couldn’t handle my psychosis driven metaphysical beliefs. Isn’t that his job!? Anyway, it was really a gift because the pdoc he referred me to has been amazing and has found a way to keep me stable for 16 months now. I started seeing him over three years ago. It was pretty rough there for a while but my new pdoc has stuck with me and kept seeking new treatment options to help me. After years of average, or worse, pdocs I have finally found a good one.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead
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