He sent me two messages one yesterday and one this morning asking if I wanted to come in and that he had an earlier slot if I wanted it.

I didn't reply until maybe an hour before.

I cried a lot.

He asked why I was angry at him. Told him that he had seen my message but didn't reply. He said he'd be in touch but wasn't.

Every session was me telling him what he was doing wrong.

Said something like I had a pattern. Asking for extra sessions not wanting it. (was doing double in jan and feb) then just one.

It would be better to discuss in session. I said why didn't he just say that instead of ignoring me. That I didn't like uncertainty.

I told him actions spoke louder than words and I couldn't feel his care.

That he was saying sorry but he didn't mean it. That I wasn't sorry that I replied late to his message.

Why the ambivalence? Skipping session.

He called me dramatic when I said:



I told him that I had really been struggling. Used the Warcraft quote where Lorian say's "i'm in so much pain"

After that bit he was softer- I felt like he was more defensive at the start.

Said that he cared about me. That he was sorry if he had been distracted (protesting in London which I already knew he'd be doing) and wasn't saying that my life didn't matter less than anyone else's . That I was important to him.

That if I did want a second session 9.30am on thursday was open.