Hi guys. My therapist didn't call me last night like she said she would. She said she would call me at 630ish. It was 745 when I texted her and was like well I guess you forgot about me. It's okay, I'm going to bed. She texted me at like 9 but I was asleep. She said she was sorry, that she had to stay late at work. Today she texted me again and said she was sorry. She was dealing with someone who was suicidal and she almost had to hospitalize them. Yeah, but I was/am? feeling suicidal too. I told her it's okay that I'm a little better and we can just talk on Saturday. But she said she would call this afternoon. She wants to hear my voice. I feel like I didn't matter as much as the other client, although I know that feelings can be wrong. I feel like I'm a mess though. I want to talk to her but I don't want to talk to her. Maybe I'm a little mad that she didn't call. I don't know. She had a good reason. I'm being a stinker. I don't know how to feel. Life sucks.