I am sorry you are struggling, Isolda. In my decades of time with bipolar 1, it is quite unpredictable, overall. There may be patterns, but those may not last or may change over the years. I used to usually get manic in June and depressed in October, Last year, I became manic and psychotic in October and I now appear to maybe be getting depression here in early June.

The stuff you read in the DSM-V or in books and papers about bipolar disorder is only an archtype. Sure, some of it will apply to you at times, but not all of it all the time.

What are your meds?