I was horribly pissed off that I planned to go to bed at 1am but ended up waking up, venting all over the internet about my problems and then finally drinking two shots of wine after 1 1/2 zopiclone, 1/2 a diazepam, 1 1/2 alprazolam, 400mg phenibut and 5mg olanzepine.

It was mostly the olanzepine and two shots of wine that stopped my agitation and put me to sleep. I ended up falling asleep at 4-5am.

I was lying there this morning in bed and said "I'm not taking the vyvanse" and would just rather have a dull understimulated boring day or just sleep - But I couldn't.. I started to get really bad akathisia so I had to take it.

Now it's almost 4pm and my day is wasted, I can't call my therapist or make an appointment with my psychiatrist. It's too late.

I'll try to ignore this mess and just think positively.