Hi there,
I'm relatively new here, and I'm not sure I'm the best to offer advice, but I can listen.
I think what I've heard is that you did what you could do and took responsibility. You shared what you could and you gave her permission to react however she may. That's the really hard part, I think. She's going to react in her own way. She might need a little time to digest what you shared, or a little time to process what you said. Or maybe she's giving you time to prove that things really have changed. Have they? Are you able to control your reaction and let things go for a bit?
I'll be here to listen, though sometimes there's a delay of a day between my responses.
I hope you are feeling a little better today, @
busymomof5!