I had a dream where we both mutually said we wanted to end the marriage and it ended amicably.

I speak with my therapist again today. I feel I am getting ready to tell my husband I am not happy in this relationship.

Last night, I was seriously depressed and unhappy. He picked up on it and tried to cheer me up. He asked me what was wrong, and I fibbed, saying it's about being isolated from friends during COVID and the work issues I face. That's a part of it, but it's not the real issue.

I am going to talk to my therapist about whether I should approach my husband about this right now. We cannot necessarily jump in right now to seeing a couples therapist because of COVID. It would probably take a few more weeks before that can happen. So now may not be the right time to bring it up.

I'm thinking that it needs to be said, but perhaps closer to the date when we are actually able to see a therapist together, IF he wants to try and salvage this. I wouldn't want to say it and have it hanging out there in the atmosphere between us with no resolution or decision.

I don't know. I just feel really down.