While people do accomplish some stupid things, these things are called accidents for a reason. ((((NWTR)))) your bitterness shows through and it aches my heart to see you suffer. Many people drive wrecklessly and "get away" with it. I'm sorry for you and your mom's, family...and the situation that occurred.
I hope that with each week that passes now you will be able to find another perspective. Too many have suffered for too long, and there is life to live. We all have things that can stick us in the past; it takes hard work to not be.
One foot in front of the other.