I wasnt diagnosed until age 43, but looking back we have traced it about to age 6 there was one of those "uncles" I had no desire to live. was just awful. Looking back in my 20's and 30's sometimes were absolute hell.. One resulted in a OD and almost a week in ICU. Looking back my life over all???? Its in screaming neon lights of " Bipolar" Id get down and Id go see my Medical Doctor and get on a AD which looking back worked way to fast then I was Hypo/Mania for months on end.

As I have gotten older Id like to say my depressions are not as severe but no.... but when I do fall into one..... I really have to struggle to pull myself out of them.

My chronic pain really plays into the depression part of my life.. I mean who can be in awful pain 24/7 and not get depressed over it all ??

Somedays I wake up and think Oh Shyt I'm still alive