I am realizing that while T royally screwed up last session there is an additional dynamic with myself at play here. I am not comfortable with every other week sessions and have not been offered the space to dialogue about my needs while respecting his boundary.
So... looking for others thoughts. IF T can fix last week I am thinking of putting these options out there as alternatives to every other week and would like input.

Taking a break until finances change then returning to therapy. Down side is if I am being honest I don’t think I would ever return for a variety of reasons.

Weekly sessions every other month. This would give me a session to reconnect/catch up, two sessions to process and then a session to wrap up before the break. Down side is that I have a hunch T would not be able to work within this rhythm for much the same reason every other week is hard for me.

Therapy intensives. Stop “regular therapy” and save up as I am able. Once I have the funds available schedule a longer session with T (2hrs-4hrs) with a specific focus and plan. For example right now we are working with teen years. Go in with a highly specific plan and goals, create a comfortable space in his office for where I was as a teen, meet the needs we can meet, process the traumas, wind down with some lighter/play type activities. T uses a similar model to this in a different setting but only sees those clients for a single intensive.