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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
Hey, Desoxyn, I am new here so, forgive me, but, do you have anyone to help you maybe with your meds? You seem to be sort of all over the map with them. Or maybe I am missing something. I have difficulty remembering to take all mine, myself. I live alone. I really need some help.
In my four decades dealing with bp 1 with tons of psychosis and lots of addcition to absolutely everything, I can pretty much guarantee you that it is going to be far more difficult to achieve stability of any kind with non-prescribed substances in the mix. I have tried them all. Alcohol, benzos, opiates, uppers, hallucinogens, on and on. Not judging in the least, but I have had the course. Is there any chance you could try to do this without the extraneous stuff? It might help you.
Sending you strength and suport. I hope you have a better day.
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It's nothing compared to what it was yet it seems to be causing the same - If not, more pain and anguish than using 20 different chemicals at the same time.
I'm only using two. 1. Phenibut - Which seems to be a good antidepressant "supplement" and 2. Xanax - Which I'm not taking anymore at a very low dose but getting insomnia as a withdrawal.
I told my doctor so he gave me diazepam to withdraw from it - But because of being at the end of my injection, I wanted to feel better so I took an extra 40mg Vyvanse, stayed up and had to take Xanax for anxiety from it.
Then the alcohol I was just trying for one night to see if it would help - It didn't so I'm done with that.
That's all it is. I don't know why this is giving me problems. What I used to do with chemicals was absolutely ridiculous 30 different drugs but I was severely neglected so no one was checking up on my mental state or anything.
It seems really suspicious to me that reality is so terrifying because I'm a completely honest and authentic person - I don't hide anything. It's really weird. 20-30 different drugs of all kinds and now I use 2-3 and my mental health goes down the drain? Why?