I let my mom read over what I wrote and she wasn't mad. So now I get to tell my doctor that I went over all of this with my mom.

The biggest part about this is that I'm freaking out about it too much. I think it's because of knowing what it's like to be paranoid on weed - Especially when I smoked too much from my moms friends joint while on a hike - I was afraid of anyone knowing that I was high and paranoid. They were laughing and joking and I felt like they were laughing at me.

I told my mom that I'm afraid of people making a big deal about my mental state and judging me and feeling like I need to go to the psych ward.

But everything is fine. What I want out of this appointment is to stay on the same meds but be able to sleep - With either a PRN 5mg diazepam with the zopiclone or change both to temazepam (Because my doctor prefers that to zopiclone but he was on vacation so my moms doctor prescribed me zopiclone because he prefers that over temazepam). I don't want temazepam though because of it's longer half life.

So everything is ok. I'm just sick and tired of this crap and want to not worry about meds and such.