i ended up blocking both my parents. fathers day is coming. i usually ignore it. i don't know if they have figured out i've blocked them yet.

i don't know how to come out of this not looking like a terrible person...

i planned a painting for fathers day. i know the composition and style, i just don't know what colors to use. also, i'm much better at drawing than painting so we'll see if i can pull it off. it will be called "Portrait for Father's Day 2020". (it will be a self portrait)

i'm not coping well with anything lately. every human interaction has the potential of being triggering. i'm so happy to be stuck at home. i think i really really need a therapist. someone to help me work things out. the problem is that getting a therapist is such a draining process. i'm not very productive these days... beyond working out and cooking meals, everything is exhausting.