I don't like to sleep. I hate that I did last night and the night before.
I have these dreams..they are horrible..I hate them. In these dreams my grandmother is in the background..she doesn't talk..she doesn't move she just points at me. Well last night had to be the worst. I had a dream I went to a therapist and she was standing in the door pointing and making this horrible gasping noise. Later in the dream I was at a hospital and there was blood in front of the ER doors and in front of every door in the hospital and she was still there standing,pointing,gasping. Needless to say ever since I woke up this morning I haven't been feeling great. I feel so scared and eerie so guilty. I can't feel the ground under my feet yet I can see it. I feel so unreal yet at the same time I feel like I am going to crawl right out of my skin. I have to go and make some coffee so I won't fall asleep tonight I can't handle anymore dreams like that.