We haven't been sharing bedrooms. Even though it's "our" bedroom and I'll be returning once the night feeds are done, it's temporarily "his" room for now. It doesn't bother me that it's on his wall. It bothers me what's written on them.

Due to covid19, both of our therapists live out of town and have our sessions via phone. He's had 3 "appointments" with her so far.. and I don't think I can just call her and speak with her.. nor do I think I'd be allowed to with his permission.

I don't ask him about his therapy. He's shared some of it with me, though.. like I'm his best friend and he wants me to know how much of his codependency has affected his abilities to be assertive with others.. and that he just needs to be ok with people not liking his point of views and boundaries. To some degree, yes, this is true. It's a single layer of the bigger picture when it comes to his compulsive lying though. Gee, I want to stick that fork in him!

We can't change the past. I get it. He can't undo what's already been done. These sticky notes just rubs me the wrong way. He's definitely convinced himself, his family and friends, and his therapist that he's a good person. And ya, I see good things in him, too. But what about all the damaging stuff. I feel like he's still in hiding .. still trying to play the victim.. still not forthright about the extent of his behaviours.