Thanks NP, you have been a big part of why I have shifted my perception on H from “oh he is just financially stupid” to “wait, WTAF, NO!”. But last session I mentioned to T that having taken an honest assessment of my skills and the available jobs in my area I could not reasonably leave H AND get my mental health needs met with T. T knows how very bad my other experiences have been and my unwillingness to put myself in a position to use clinics and such around here. T actually cried about my experiences in the mental health “care” system outside of private practice and how aweful the therapists are. But, then T said he understood my choosing to stay with H to have access to quality mental health care even if H manipulated it.