Definitely becoming manic. For many reasons, especially going on almost 72 hours with no sleep and still boundless energy. The sun is coming up again...I can see light creeping in and I haven’t been able to close my eyes even once. No, I didn’t take a prn but just because I’m flirting with fire. I’ve been VERY productive and creative these last few weeks and I don’t want to ruin it. I am going to text my t at a reasonable hour though just to let her know my mood is shifting. She will probably want to msg my pdoc. We will see what happens. I know I need to change my mindset but it’s really hard right now.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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