I have cried exactly twice in the last 8 years. I am basically not really capable of crying in response to an appropriate crying stilmulus any more. I am sort of numb, I hate to say, but it is true. After everything I have survived, you just cannot really get much of a reaction out of me anymore. I do not like it, but I am also not going to lie about it. Some sort of big-time numbness has settled in upon me, and there doesn't seem to be any change in sight.

I think for me, a certain amount of fear is required in order to cry. But there is only one thing I am afraid of anymore. And that is my own brain.