Ok that joy didn't last long...it seems like this depression is stronger than my joy can get...at least now. I just feel dead inside...like I'm just surrounded by all this darkness...it's swarming all around me.

Today I didn't have the strength to stay online or even get out of bed. I don't even have the energy to be here...to be awake...to talk to anyone... I just feel no desire to do anything but lay in bed...lifeless.