I typed up an email to you this morning telling you the rest of the answer to your question near the end of our session, then proceeded to make changes to it over the next 3 hours, and then ultimately ended up sending it to myself so i wouldn't lose it. i'm not ready to tell you yet that it's the relationship that i'm afraid of not just the work. i'm afraid of losing myself in it again if I come back to therapy with you. Cuz that's what had happened, I can see that now after being away for awhile. One session (yesterday) was okay, I wasn't worried about it, but how long would it be if I came back weekly before it happened again? I know I need to do the work i know those dreams were showing me that it's time to do my shadow work i know this. i feel this. i want to do it with you because you know my psyche so well and all but... i don't know how to not get lost in the relationship again. I don't know if that even makes any sense. I don't have any better words for it, I think I want to talk about it though. Because by talking about it maybe I can understand it better. I want to call you and schedule a couple-3 more sessions. I don't think it'll happen in that short amount of time...