Called my pdoc's today. The nurse got back to me and told me not to restart the fluoxetine and to wait until my appointment on Monday. To be honest, I don't know if I can wait that long. I ****ed up and got high today. I want to skip group, but they told me to check in today, but I just had an edible and don't particularly want to show up high as ****. Not that they can tell--it's over Zoom and there's a lot of people in the group.
At least I'm not crying in a ball on the floor anymore though. I was doing something that was supposed to be enjoyable earlier, but all I kept thinking was "I'm dead inside," and "when will all of this be over?" Why bother?