Hi Blue,

I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
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I have found, for me, the sense of numbness can be caused by the depression itself and/or, more so by the meds. I believe more often the meds.

I have friend who is quite sensitive and cries easily. She went off of her antiD. Her husband was begging her to go back on it. When I asked him why he wanted her to go back on the med(s), he told me she cries too much without them. Her crying makes him anxious. She told me the meds make her emotionally numb and she feels half-dead emotionally, on them. She had said she cannot cry and cannot even feel normal emotion when on her med(s). (Maybe he would do well to learn to manage his own anxiety? At least a part of the reason she continues meds is to alleviate his anxiety . She is afraid he will leave her if she does not deny her feelings. I am thinking this is probably a rather frequent story, truth be told.)

I hope you feel; better soon, Blue. Much Love to you!