Can't imagine ever being mad or disappointed in you. You try so hard and you do all that amazing stuff. Then on top of it you have a mental illness. It's normal to have ups and downs. Losing a job is tough on anyone whether or not they have a mental illness. I think you're doing the best you can. I'm not always honest either about my suicidal thoughts and stuff because I don't want to worry you all, but then again if I just stopped signing in for a week because I was IP you all might (hopefully) notice but hopefully not worry. So I get the not being totally honest part but never ever could I imagine being upset or disappointed in you. HUGS I know we only talk on PC because I'm like stupid and don't know how to do anything other than facebook but I consider you my friend, all of you! You guys are the most real, accepting peeps anywhere and I love all of you! okay, now I'm crying.