Saw surgeon again today to check on progress in healing. The area around my belly button was very stiff and dark. He cut into me to get to the infection. It was kind of deep. He did numb me with lidocaine but I barely respond to that stuff. I felt all the cutting with the scalpel and jamming the gauze in there and pulling them out. I'm almost as sore as when I left hospital. That now also has to be packed, so that's two spots on my belly. I'm back to hurting with every breath. This has my depression so high right now. I cried throughout a nap earlier. I'm having a hard time with this. I was feeling better and was getting more mobile and now that's gone again.