I still feel crappy today but it seems to be more of a mood issue today. I met with my therapist and I took a couple Xanax and did a 15 minute guided meditation video before I saw her. My sessions haven’t been too good lately. Of course the second we started before I said anything she said there was still no definite date yet of when we could return to her office. So that put me in a slump. Literally in a slump. I was halfway lying on the floor the whole session because of how tired and exhausted I was just from life in general. I mentioned that I was worried that I was becoming too needy and clingy with her especially with the emails so she wants me to not email her as much. I wish I hadn’t told her that. Now I know for sure I can’t tell her some other things. I’m sure I’m just very anxious about returning to work on Tuesday.

But I got into an argument with my mom this morning that I still swear is her fault. And I’ve just been down and emotional for several days. Not to mention out of it physically.