My caseworker when I was a teenager who I was very close to and helped me out so much died of cancer in 2013. Not only didn’t I cry or not show much emotion, but I blocked it from my memory. It like caused such a sudden overwhelming amount of grief and sadness and emotion all at one time that my mind just shut it out and, to this day I go long periods of times, like a year or so, without thinking about her and I’m still emotionless about it.