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Old Jun 11, 2020, 07:09 PM
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Originally Posted by bpcyclist View Post
My heart broke reading this, Wander. i am so sorry you are struggling like this. I have certainly been there, many times.

Could I just quickly ask what your psych meds are at this point?I can't really remember, sorry. Also, have you made any changes lately?

Pleae do not give up, Wander. This will improve, it will pass at some point, but not if you throw in the towel. Sending you strength and love to you.
Thanks. I’m taking Lithium, Ziprasidone(Geodon), Ritalin, and Clonazepam. I’ve been on this combo for 16 months, except Ritalin was added three months ago. I was tapering off of Clonazepam after being on very high doses last year but due to withdrawals I have sat on the same dose for the last month. I’m mentally stable, just reached my limit of suffering. It has been decades long, with few real breaks. I’m safe for now due to my love of my nieces and nephews. I know how deeply losing me like that would affect them.

I must add that my current distress is related to a severe, chronic, and untreatable physical illness that I have. Fibromyalgia and/or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. It leaves me mostly housebound with no life. It may or may not improve. This massive flare-up began five months ago and is getting no better.
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Last edited by Wander; Jun 11, 2020 at 07:33 PM.
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