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Old Jun 12, 2020, 12:42 AM
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I have many times. I've had depression for most of my life. IT started in h.s and I'm in my late 49's now. I've been on lots of different meds over the years, but nothing really works that well. Now I'm on Cybalta. It helps a little. I have anxiety too.

I have also tried seeing psychologists, but none of them have helped me & none of them seemed to take me that seriously.. I get no real support from anyone now. One friend I recently cut out of my life for being rude and disrespectful to me for years told me that I'm "whiny", "negative", and that lots of people have a worse life than I do and that I'm "lucky".

She told me that I'm to "sensitive', that I 'overreact" to things, that she's sick of hearing about my issues and that I need to be more positive. She told me to rate issues on a 1-10 scale and that anything less than a 7 is stupid.

I have no one to talk to now and although I do have a few friends, none of them have problems like mine, or as severe as mine. I rarely bring up my issues with them as I'm afraid that they'll end up ditching me like other people have if I start making them feel like my "therapist>

I have had a few people complain and exaggerate things that I did. One time one jerk former male friend made a big issue out of paying for my drinks and how I was being picky for not drinking it like it was listed on the menu, ugh! I listened to their issues, so I thought it was OK to talk about mine too. I have also been called "needy", "suffocating", "that I worry to much", that I need to relax, go with the flow, and chill out.

I'm better than I used to be. Now this place is the only place that I can find any support. My husband doesn't care about my issues. Him and my family think that it's all in my head and that I can become happy if I want to be happy.

They don't understand that things don't work that way. I often feel judged harshly and that sometimes people avoid me because I can't be happy all the time or fake being happy and social like most people can.

I'm not good at being fake or hiding my feelings. I have lost friends because most people don't like being around "negative" people who "stress" them out. Even one former best friend told me that I "stressed" her out with my issues and that her health issues were much more important than my own serious issues with dealing with a husband who kept on threatening to divorce me, financial issues, etc....

She was really nasty and two faced and told a mutual friend of mine that I'm a lazy person who doesn't want to work and that all I do is sit around and eat and drink all day which isn't true. This was when I wasn't working. She also said that I'm a "drug addict" just because I take prescription meds. and other nasty lies.

This makes my depression and anxiety worse. I did nothing to her but hurt her ego by telling her things I didn't like about her. She didn't take things well. One of them was to please stop trying to sell me stuff. She also said that I "stressed' her out with my problems.

A mutual friend who also had a fall out with her told me about her. And that she was jealous of me too. I feel that no one cares. That'd be nice if I had at least one or two people in real life that I could talk to, or even a few people on here who won't judge me.

Has anyone else on here have similar issues with people like that?
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