You don't need the stress...and I get it...this is the worst time to have to deal with worrying about getting "pay"....but you are the only one who can manage this situation and get it done so that you get some form of payment to live....you need to find the "survival" mode deep inside and each day take a baby step toward resolving the problem. We know no one is going to do it for you.....Keep going...continue to use the support groups to give you motivation. I've been thru this....I was on Short Term Disability which led to long term...it was 2 years of hell getting on Long Term Disability and I was struggling just like you....you need someone in your life to keep pushing you forward...whether it be a therapist, a friend or the forums....You don't need this...but you do have to deal with it .