Thank you. It is fantastic...I honestly never thought I'd be stable. So there is hope for all of us!

The medication combination I'm on is causing me to be stable enough to work on trauma in therapy - which results in increased stability.

It has taken me 49 years and at least 35 meds, in countless combinations, to become as stable as I am at this time. The medications I'm taking now are:
Lamictal (mood stabilizer)
Pristiq (anti-depressant)
Klonopin (anti-anxiety)
Trilafon (perphenazine. Typical (as opposed to atypical) AP. Treats agitated depression/mixed state bipolar, and mania...decreases that horrible bipolar anxiety)

The most successful med I've ever taken is Trilafon. It has given me a life. I had never even heard of it before my pdoc prescribed it some months ago. I don't know why it's not used more often.

For me, especially when rages have happened to me, I have felt like I was having a seizure of some sort. The rage would come on extremely rapidly, felt uncontrollable (without meds, that is), and would last for a short time before it would "burn out." Afterwards I would feel fatigued, like I could sleep for many hours.