celeste,
I know how you are felling all to well. Sometimes, I have to have faith in hoping that things will get better even thought I'm not sure that they will. It's hard to do. I look around at my life and wonder what happened to the old me. The confident, well rounded, fun loving me. She is gone and I have no idea how to get her back. I miss her because she wasn't afraid of anything. The new me however, is afraid and cautious of everything. I'm so worried aboout small insignificant things that were never important to me. I ask myself why this has happened to me and there is no answer. All I know is that I have t o take things day by day and often times, minute by minute. I have learned to lower the expectations of myself as I realize I used to expect too much from myself. Make tiny goals for yourself. then when you accomplish them, reward yourself. I know it seems small but little by little you will realize that you can do whatever you set your mind too and gain more hope day by day. I hope things are going better for you today. Please know that someone is always here if you need them. Take care. Thinking of you.