Hi all.

I am a married man that's been is a marriage (to an ordained pastor) for 17 years and have 2 teen daughters. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety of my own for about 4 years to where I will get to a point and then just shut down. My wife approached my parents a few years ago saying that she was on the brink of divorce. I tried getting help for about a year and then stopped.
Eventually (about a year ago) I sought help again with a counselor that I felt some affinity with and started making some real progress in the way that I see the world. I started appreciating what I had in life and for the last 6. Months instead of working so much I finally found a balance but still occassionally struggle. A few weeks back we took a family walk and due to a bad morning- I shut down and went silent. To my surprise last weekend my wife told me that she wanted a divorce. The last week has been like hell on earth for me with emotions hitting me left and right like they were fired out of a canon. She is now very cold and shut down. My regrets are my own that we didnt take it more seriously but I'm in shock that this is happening.