I took 7.5mg olanzepine in total.

I know I'm not a normie here but I use this as a lifeline when I'm in deep psychosis. Typing here really save me.

I felt a magnetic field over my eyes like I was transmitting some data from God. I know that sounds weird but God isn't what people define it to be.. it's like where creativity comes from. I dont like to feel that creativity comes from the person but rather an unknown force, trying to use our bodies to create something...... I could go on forever.

I'll just try and sleep. And to let you know, anyone can use this roll call to attempt the same thing.. cuz I know some people are scared of telling the truth.. that's what I've started to realize after being on abilify.. abilify lowers insight to self harm (And telling someone theres something wrong and theres fears.. the fear is the only thing that matters.. causing fear is considered by the brain to prevent harm to yourself or others), even if you're not psychotic.. but only probably on the high doses that I've been on - although I could be wrong about all of this.

Just dont be scared live life the best you can. Theres many other reasons for being here like reassurance, support, hugs, understanding, love, inclusiveness, advise, to rant, to disguss, teach, update on what's happening, all in relation to "psychosis" which not many people understand.. unless they're in it or a very trained professional (All they know is how to treat it.. I think rarely few are smart enough to understand without ever having it..), or whatever labels we have, people can come understand for themselves for knowledge for fear of having it.. and family members..

And even I have to realize that I dont have it, even while knowing this and being diagnosed. Why? Because it can help you.. that certain symptom is objective reality.. which is different in many parts of the wor..

Ok I'm done.