I feel like if I switched to a male therapist things would be a lot better and I’d have this huge weight lifted off of me that I’ve been carrying for a long time. I know what the problem is. I know the issue is that I’m deeply attracted to you and that it is really affecting my ability to function. I know the reasons I get into these funks is because I can’t stand being away from you. I know it doesn’t have as much to do with the virus as much as it has to do with the pain of being away from you. I think about you nonstop and it’s becoming such a big issue that it’s taken over my life. I know I need to just tell you. But I honestly don’t know if I can.

But that is the honest to goodness reason that I’ve been acting like this and feeling like this for so many weeks.