I keep thinking that if I somehow (despite my taking very few risks according to guidelines) were to choose to meet with my T in person (once he allows it) and unknowingly (like asymptomatic) infect him and cause him to be hospitalized or die (or for that to happen to his wife and/or son), that I could never live with myself. I feel the same about seeing my parents or in-laws in person, too. H has done some distanced meetups with my D and his mom (outside, more than 6 feet apart), but I fear anything closer for a long time.