And Rose, Before anything or anyone else, you have got to matter to yourself. You are worthy, you know yourself as an individual soul before God, better than anyone. You know your life, your trials, your successes, failures and challenges, better than anyone else possibly ever could.
Do you really think you are lacking in the eyes of God, because you have just completed an extremely taxing mission of putting another soul before yourself for many years and are now alone?
Please, give yourself credit. You don’t require someone else needing you, to give you value.
Please, please at this point give yourself permission to rest with the knowledge of a job well and faithfully done.