I feel so guilty for having the thoughts I’m having. I keep thinking of the reasons I’d give him for divorcing. I keep thinking about the scenarios involved in how this would all turn out. I cannot stop thinking. It’s hard to relax.
Our fight yesterday reminded me of prior fights with him yelling over me as I tried to argue back. Toxic. Just toxic.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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