Well, finally got tired and fell asleep around 0530 or so. Just never got tired. Got about four hours, then, ready to go again. It is always a challenge for me to try to anticipate and correctly identify--am I getting hypo again, or, is this just average, unstable bipolar sleep stuff? I can never tell, it seems, so, we'll just have to wait and see.

Yesterday was better for me. Was able to write a chapter in the novel. It went well. I was engaged and somewhat creative and I enjoyed writing. That feeling has just been almost totally absent for quite awhile. My amotivation has been collosal lately. Again, always tough to know--am I getting into a depression mode? Am I just having a BirdDancer blip? Dunno, I just do not know how to tell into more is revealed.

So far this morning, not blue, not hopeless, and did not wake up in a negative loop pathway thing. Maybe today will be a pretty good day.

I unintentionally watched the video of that man in Atlanta who was shot and killed by police. As most know, there are few people more critical of big-city American policing than me. That said, waching that film, which I totally did not want to see, it just came on and I glanced up, anyway, if they charge that officer with any kind of a seriosu crime, I personally, having seen what I saw, think it might be very unfair to that officer. The guy turned around and suddenly aimed a long object at that officer with no warning. It could easily have been a gun. easily. No one is bigger about civil rights than me, I don't think, but thta must have been terrifying for that officer to see something aimed at him without any warning or time to talk about it. Just my personal take and I am sure others will disagree

Love and hugs to all!!!!!!