I'm scared!!! I'm scared of every choice. I don't want to go back on that med. I had a close call, almost gave in. I don't want to do much. I know that there is a problem. But I just don't see a way out that doesn't require work and effort. I have striven for perfection for too long. And it's killing me. I have tools, but can't seem to use them consistently. Why????

Why does life have to be so hard??