Thanks folks. Quite frankly, this is just getting worse. I made my dark poem earlier. For all i know, i just upsetted a lot of people with it. I apologize for it, but i needed to vent. Quite frankly, i want to divorce him. He always seem to expect me to take charge but when I do, he's unhappy. It's damaged if you do and damaged if you don't. I no longer want relationship. I feel too hurt as it is. I don't know what is love. I never felt loved, I was never held or kissed or cuddled by him. It always seem to be one sided. I honest to goodness wish I never met him.