Welp... I am still feeling pissed and depressed, just like yesterday. However, I am more pissed than depressed. I am also becoming increasingly violent and I am being mean to my mom and dad. I'm not trying to be mean towards them, though. I just have zero patience right now and even the smallest things makes me angry. I'm like a ticking time bomb.

My parents want to talk to me, but I can't talk to them for more than a few minutes because I get agitated and want to be by myself. I usually cut them off by saying some BS like, "ok. I have to do some work now, so I'll call you later?" Then I never call them back because I am pissed off, but not necessarily towards them. I'm just trying to stop lashing out on people.

I need to call my therapist for help with my agitation, so I'm going to leave her a voicemail soon. I'll mention that I talked to my pdoc and that I need something to help in the interim while Trileptal is doing its thing.