<font color="blue">Well guys I'm back on again. Actually i've been on here off and on throughout the months, I just haven't posted.. sorry. L

I've been doing alright I guess. Moods up and down, still on Effexor XR at 100mg. The days are getting longer and i'm happy about that. Even though dull, dark, dreary weather really affects my SAD.

Anxiety hasn't been bad I don't remember the last time I had a panic attack, even though I have been getting symptoms of anxiety they are easily taken care of.

Still no job though, I don't even think I want one... how sad is that.. I like my life now, being here with my BF of nearly 4 yrs, but i'm not living here on a permanent basis, I go home after a week or so. Stay home for a couple days, then come back here. Here is where i'm the most happy.

The big anxiety bit will be come March 31st when I take off to the Florida keys for 10 days. Well one stop in Orlando to Magic Kingdom so my 4 year old niece can expierence that abit. 17 days in total I'll be gone, that's why i'm anxiety ridden, because my BF isn't coming....

So that is going to be very hard. I even said i'd stay here while my family went on this trip to be with him. He told me not to be silly that if I stayed behind i'd regret it since the keys are pretty much my favorite spot to go on vacation right now.

My PTSD has been ok. I still get triggers alot, but I have accepted them. They don't always mean that I don't remember something because of a body memory, it could be me just remembering that certin fear. If that makes any sense. One move recently that triggered me very badly was the movie Cellular. Very triggering. I may have posted about that in the PTSD thread? I honestly cannot remember.

My sleep pattern is better, I still wake up but it is because of my BF going to work. So my clock is on that time now I guess. I just force myself to stay up until i'm ready for bed. If I do that I don't notice the snoring if it does happen.

Hmm that pretty much covers my update for the time being. It's after midnight here so I guess I'll finish up my glass of water and go up to bed. </font>