I mean, when I’m anxious about something, I don’t always get the physical symptoms of anxiety like I described. I know why I’m anxious and I can try to control it and I’m not that bothered by it. However when I have anxiety in my mind AND the physical symptoms, it’s very hard to get back on track without some sort of benzo. I feel like I can’t breathe and my heart is pounding, and I just get this feeling of dread that wells up and squeezes my heart. I can’t describe it that well.

But for the last few days I’ve only gotten the physical symptoms and can’t for the life of me figure out why I am anxious. There is nothing in my mind that is making me anxious.

And no, I don’t hAve a benzo problem. I began to have a fondness for Ativan once and I stopped taking it immediately because I absolutely did not want to become addicted. Klonopin doesn’t make me high like Ativan did.

I just feel awkward asking because I always think they’ll assume I’m drug seeking. Same thing for pain meds. I suffered horrible back pain and refused to ask for pain meds until they were offered to me because I didn’t want to seem like I was looking for them. Btw, they don’t work for me anyway as it turns out so the point was moot.