This is my last post in this thread. Just wanted to say that in the end I will always think the world of my psychologist, and have the utmost respect for her. Even though I've done a lot of venting, grieving, and don't understand a lot of things in the end, I'm okay with that. I can write pages of all the thank yous to her! I owe her so much. I went to her knowing I could hold on to life maybe 1 or 2 more weeks. She saved my life, twice. Taught me so many things. I can't believe I've lost her, my therapist! My soul hurts!