Yeah I fluctuate between the reality and non reality aspect but it does something positive for me. It’s complicated but I believe and don’t believe at the same time.....idk even when I was pre psychosis my friend gave me some kind of energy healing and I swear it’s like getting a massage without ever being touched. Anyway your mileage may vary but I find that finding a compatible belief system can help provide like a structure for stuff that doesn’t fit neatly into boxes in the mainstream reality.