I was wondering if I was a narcissist for posting that but it's honest. I looked up "Covert/introverted narcissist" and wasn't that and then "Self aware narcissist" but it wasn't that either because I have too much empathy.

It's impossible to ignore or hurt someone else when you have empathy. You can't ignore empathy - It's like love.. Much stronger than hate if you can feel it. They're opposites. You can't have both at the same time.

I'm just autistic. My ex step dad was a narcissist and the biggest piece of **** and is getting his karma. I will get my own karma for self medicating due to his actions - I'll then realize how to cope better as an addict and he'll either keep being a narcissist or become aware before or after he dies.

He's never taken a drug in his life. His drug was manipulating other people and pretending to care.

It doesn't matter how intelligent you are (Like my mom) - You can still get manipulated. The only way to solve that problem is to learn from your mistakes.